I Am My Own Guinea Pig

As a self-proclaimed therapeutic gemstone practitioner I take a lot of risks in trusting myself. I am becoming more and more aware that it really is the natural medicine that meets the body's needs best. The funny thing is, I have been extensively trained in the mechanisms of pharmaceutical use. I sold "drugs" for nine years. I can explain to you the physical disease state of hypertension, hyperlipidemia, osteoporosis, benign prostatic hyperplasia and much much more and how these states differ from a healthy body. I can diagram many different pathways that pharmaceuticals are used to alter the state of disease. Of the drugs I used to represent, I can explain their mechanism of action and how they are metabolized and excreted from the body. This is my background. The irony is that after being laid off from my job selling drugs, I have been made aware, at a gradual and increasingly intense pace, that I am a gemstone practitioner and I can use stones to affect people on many levels. So, as my own guinea pig, I have to treat myself first. You know, put your own oxygen mask on before helping others. I have been wearing a daily prescription of stones for years now. The Rx changes from day to day, but not that much. I always wear Carnelian. I love Amazonite- it makes me happy, and Aquamarine makes me strong when I need to speak publicly or defend. Lately, in the last three weeks or so, I have been experiencing all kinds of bizarre symptoms. I am shaky, (where my jewelry-making hands have always been strong and steady, now they quiver and quake), my skin itches, my body aches as if I have a fever, but I don't, I am stiff and exhausted. My sense is that I am going through a vibrational shift and my body id adjusting. It is awkward but I want the shift to occur- I want to grow in my abilities. I keep telling myself, it's worth it, but wondering, when will it stop? I was working today at my desk, under my altar and two stones made themselves known to me. They were Charoite and Rutilated Quartz. Here are their general properties:

Charoite

A stone of transformation. The soul stone that overcomes fear. Charoite stimulates inner vision and spiritual insight and aids in coping with enormous change at a spiritual level. Encourages vibrational change and links to the higher realities. At the same time, it provides deep physical and emotional healing. It helps you accept the present moment as perfect. Charoite grounds the spiritual self into everyday reality.

Rutilated Quartz
An effective integrator of energy at any level. It heightens the energetic impulse of Quartz and is a very efficient vibrational healer. Spiritually, Rutilated Quartz is said to have a perfect balance of cosmic light and to be an illuminator for the soul, promoting spiritual growth. It facilitates contact with the highest spiritual guidance. It draws off negative energy and and breaks down the barriers to spiritual progress, letting go of the past. Helpful for therapists and counselors as it filters negative energy from a client and provides protection against psychic attack.

I placed one of each stone in both sides of my bra until I can create a new bellychain for myself. I am less shaky already. Isn't my work cool?