Monday, January 28, 2013


Last month I made a promise to myself to make self-love, that feeling I have when I look at myself in the mirror naked, after eating a huge slice of German chocolate cake secretly in the garage, at the expanse of my waistline, the wrinkles, the odor, the soft, fluffy rolls, all the foolish things that can be said or even thought, the messes, the inconsistencies, the imperfections, all of them, all of it, all of me, unconditional. I made a promise to myself to love me, as I come, from moment to moment, no matter what the circumstances. I had a feeling that if I could master this, amazing things would happen. It was a beautiful experiment. I did very well, am doing very well. I have felt only love for myself, love and compassion and tenderness and gratitude.

A miracle happened.  The same feelings I have for myself have been gushing out of me like a faucet, a fountain, a waterfall, an ocean wave and spreading over the people around me. For my friends, family, my children and most especially, my husband I have felt so much love, so much compassion, so much tenderness, so much acceptance of what is.

I have learned that when you can do nothing else, you have lost all power, simply breathe. The other word of advice is to stay. When things are challenging, stay. Hold space and do not react, just breathe and do not leave. What a wonderful thing to learn with so much of this lifetime left to enjoy.

Tuesday, January 01, 2013


This day is laden with magic. This and every day from here on out. You just have to know that it is there, expect it, show up for it, and witness it.  Today is January 1, 2013. I can feel the ease in the day already. I don't feel the usual post-holiday depression setting in and my urge to see the sun rise over the ocean was greater than my urge to ring in the new year at 12:01AM.
You were there too. Here is what you saw:

This was the last sunset for the Gregorian calendar's December 31, 2012

The moon was setting in the west, shining her light on the curling waves this morning, January 1, 2013.

A burst of flames brought in the rising sun

The light tears into the day

Becoming one with the flame

Can you feel your dose of magic?

A trio of dolphins swims directly in front of me. One plays in the waves.

Your year begins here.

I made a resolution. It occurred to me, that the only thing I could really do that would provide the foundation for all else, was to truly, unconditionally, love myself. If I could do that; look lovingly upon myself at all times, then I could and can do anything. Not needing or requiring the approval of anyone else in this world, I can accomplish miracles, with my own love, flowing over.
My love flows to you.